so ive been reading the biography of william james for an assignment for school and have become extremely motivated and directed. although james' childhood, teenhood, and young adulthood (i guess his entire life up to around my age) have been completely different than my own (james being part of a very wealthy family and privy to the benefits of such a heritage) i still find a sense of accord with this long forgotten giant of a man. james was a very emotional man almost to the point of disaster. in his early twenties he suffered from "nervous" disorders such as back pains, weakness, and trembling (so called "nervous" because there could not be found any basis for his symptoms physiologically). he also liked to try chemicals that he would make himself! anyways i really could go on about william james (although at this point i really only know his life story up to about 35 years and havent read any of his philosophy [i intend to]) thats not really the point of this post.
ive decided that ive finally landed. many years ago i set out on a search for the right woman, thinking that that was the most important thing that i needed to get from life in order to progress. as one can tell from almost the entirety of my previous posts, that search was indeed my highest priority and i engaged in the search and selection with a vigor and enthusiasm that had never been previously observed. although it seems like the kind of enthusiasm i put into it was a little too much (and i have no doubt that many of my past romances would agree) a few benefits have come of it. one: i have achieved my goal. i have finally found the one with whom i will spend the rest of my life. all of my thoughts and behaviours directed at the search and selection can finally lay at rest, handing the reins of control over. although some of my thoughts will have to be directed at maintaining the relationship this is quite an easier task and one that can be laid as an underpinnings as opposed to at the fore.
the second and most important benefit that has come as a result of this 'landing' is that i have come to observe the vigor, enthusiasm, and potency that can result from the directedness of my own wants and desires. i have watched myself become absorbed in material related to my aforementioned goal and i have watched and urged myself to push forward into the world with the knowledge gained by the material in efforts to succeed. this is phenomenal! upon this realisation i know my life must change. for too long have i been lax in my studies (both publicly academic and privately). i need to read more. i need to WRITE. i think about so much and just casually write off my thoughts as private entertainment. although some of my thoughts (about EVERYTHING really) may just be mere echoes of the past some of my thoughts may be real solid foundations for my future, and the future of western though as a whole. i am a visionary and i have a vision. my vision cuts at the current society and separates ideas, concepts, and practices that are wanting. my vision also sees to the future and recognizes positivity without turning away from negativity. for these reasons i must start writing. this blog will serve as a useful record of my writings.
some topics that i will begin work on:
- marriage/personal honour/decline of true sociality
- being (in my language); the ontological entity which directs attentiveness and perspectivity and is engaged reciprocally with mind
- the tragedy of modern "man"; his immasculation and feminization
- the problem with raising girls to be "girly"; neosexism in infancy
- the influence of fiction as portrayed multimedially (ie; on tv, or other modern means for fictional media)
i think these are a fine start. i shall likely be unable to begin adequate work on any of these topics for a few months due to the cumbersome academic load im currently under. however there is some time between terms in which i will begin work on at least one of these topics.
furthermore, i have decided to copy this post and use it as my last entry in the 'journeyman' blog as well as become my first entry in my new blog. as a final word i should like to give a great thanks to william james for choosing to believe. i will forever be truly indebted to him for exposing to me that choice as well.
j
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